an end to a beginning...that's the adventure of life.

WOW !

So the married thing has happened and Jonny are to live happily ever after...and I am overjoyed about it! Now I feel a safety in my home and in my career that allows me to breathe more deeply and of course look for new things on which to focus...

First thing on my mind is the trip to Greece which I know will be ridiculously gorgeous and romantically adventurous...

But beyond is this idea of being a parent...of a human...and will we create our own human or we will find an existing human baby that needs parents to care for him or her...and how our lifestyle will change as we take on parenting and whether I will adapt joyfully to the change without too much harassment from my ever powerful ego who much rather I lounge here in the achievement of the marriage goal with so many rationalizations and reminders of how stressful it will be and how many things could go wrong...

Its truly a test of faith in myself and in my path and it scares the shit out of me!